[...of course. Everyone always assumes it's the stigma. Rufus waves Rude's reassurances aside.]

Yes, yes, I know. Trust me, I know better than anyone what that feels like and the doctors even ran their tests. It isn't the stigma.

[It doesn't even occur to him that Rude thinks that's what he saw when he passed out. It was miserable, yes, but hardly traumatic for Rufus.

At least, compared to other things.]